Let the Insanity begin!

So I have been thinking about doing this for a while now but have been very hesitant.  Talking about this puts me in a very vulnerable position because  this is a very personal, sensitive subject for me.

I have really been struggling with my weight. When I look in the mirror, well I can't stand to look in the mirror. About three years ago I got down to 143 pounds. Now I am only  5"3 but I come from a family where we are genetically muscular. I cannot count the times that I have been asked do I play sports, especially run track. Ironically there is nothing about me that is athletic. Unless you consider stepping and dancing as some form of athleticism.

Anyway, when I met my husband I started gaining weight. A lot of people said that it looked good on me because when I was small it was do to health problems (thank you Jesus for your healing power) and I walked almost everywhere that I went. So if I had to guess I would say my husbands great courting of taking me out to nice places including restaurants (which no other guy has ever done before!) I gained maybe 10-15 pounds.

Then we got married. Now when I got married several of my friends told me I was going to end up pregnant quick because the longer you wait the more fertile you are. Needless to say I got pregnant five seconds after we got married. Just kidding about a month. That pregnancy didn't last long, so although he (I believe it was a boy because of the prophetic word from my pastor to my husband about being a present day Abraham) is in heaven with our Father I still gained 15 pounds in about two months.

So then I get pregnant again about six weeks later. I gained about 40 pounds with my son Caleb, reaching my highest weight ever to 212 lbs. Note that my husband doesn't even know that. Every time he asked I would say, "None of your business!" He would laugh and say why. So now since I am blogging to the world I guess I will tell him.

I think you are getting the drift of this blog. I am now about 195 and can't stand it. So I was thinking about blogging every week about my own personal weight loss journey.  I have already made steps to eating better but I need motivation to work out. What better motivation than posting about it on the world wide web of blogging. This makes me feel like I am obligated to do it and I need that push. I am going to post my weight and measurements on Monday, and start INSANITY!

I would also like to get into kickboxing. So if anyone knows of that in the Oklahoma City Area please let me know. 

I hope that this inspires another mother out there who is still grieving the extra weight of children and marriage. Or if you just want to loose weight.

PRAY FOR ME!