So I went from looking forward to having my baby and getting my body back to not looking forward to the after affects of having a child. For example the bleeding weeks afterwards.
It's amazing how someone can feel so many different emotions at one time. I am excited and can't wait to see my son. Every night when I go to bed I wonder what he looks like, is he mostly going to take after me or his dad. I look most forward to bonding with him and holding him. On the other hand I am very nervous about being a good mother and being able to take care of him. I have often realized that I am going to be expected to not only be a mother but to continue being a wife. That after I have been taking care of my son all day my husband is going to come home from working hard and be hungry. I just wonder sometimes, can I do it all? I am overwhelmed with joy and fear.
But I do know that this is what millions of women experience, especially for first time mothers. That it has been done since Eve had Cain and Abel. So with the help of the Holy Spirit I will be ok. I just thank God for friends who are able to help inform me about the things that the pregnancy books don't tell you.
I just know that I love my child so much all ready and I look forward to being his mother for the rest of his life.
About 80 days and counting until the arrival of Caleb Elvis O'Rear!
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