The Real You

It is amazing to see the attitudes and the egocentricity that we adapt in life because of the many things that have happened to us. Some of them are flaws in our character that we have a developed as a form of protection so that we can attempt to never allow someone else to hurt us in "that way" again. But isn't if funny how those walls that we build because of hurt and pain are actually founded on lies of the enemy? You know that any thought in your head is a lie rooted from the devil if it is contradictory to the word of God. That is why the bible says to cast down imaginations.
For example a woman that has been abused by men in her life or didn't have a father and grows up to hate all men. So instead some how she attracts the kinda of man that she doesn't want and pushes the good ones away. That is why it is so important that as soon as someone offends us that we give it to God.

Personally, the Holy Spirit is teaching me that the Catisha that was developed from a painful upbringing is not really the real Catisha that he created me to be. This has definitely been evident in the way that I react to my husband. No matter what happens his feathers are not easily ruffled. He is as peaceful and calm and as stable as can be. But I am more like a roller coaster and sometimes erratic in my emotions. So when I first started going to my church and rediscovered the gift of praying in the spirit the Lord started giving me detailed revelation of this is why you act that way and do the things you do. Every time something happened or me and my husband didn't agree on something I was expecting him to blow up and go crazy. So when he didn't I would get angry. Crazy! I know but God had to reveal to me that a hostile reaction or environment is not normal even tho is was my past normal.

I realize that some of my ways that I thought were normal were not at all. God had to introduce me to a kingdom normality that He originally created me to walk in. That I am approachable, confident, and bold woman of God and I will be the best that I can be, living a purposeful life, walking out my calling and living in destiny.

One thing God is helping me on is eye contact. I have come a long way, due to the fact that just about four or five years ago I would cringed just from someone hugging me, especially by a man due to former abuses. Now I will hug anyone, even if you don't want it. And because of God sent people, I have attained the ability to be more friendly to something as easy as smiling and thanking someone one who is checking me out in the grocery store. But just a few weeks ago, the Holy Spirit pointed out that I need to look at them in the eye when I say it. Not looking people in the eye is a infereioty that I developed for myself due to circumstances of the past. But I decree and declare that perfect love casts out all fear in Jesus name!

So what are the issues, attitudes, walls in your life that seem normal to you but might not be a kingdom normal? Do you know the real you and how you should be presenting yourself to the world as a member of the body?  Especially to someone who has had a hard past with a lot of pain and you isolate yourself to protect yourself from people. Let me tell you that is not the way that God created you to be. The past is not who God created us to be. I really want to get to a place where there is not one spot or stain of yesterday on me, and when I get around people that I used to know they say, "That is not the same Catisha that I remember!" So take a step with me as I learn to worship, meditate, and pray a little deeper and God gives revelations of how to be more and more like Christ everyday. It is a lifetime journey and the most freeing thing I think of!