But all my son has to do is crack a smile at me and that washes my frustration away. A lot of babies smile sometimes and I have known most to be very solemn. But one thing that I notice about my son was that he is unusually happy most of the time. He cries when he is hungry(specially after a long nap) when his gums are hurting sometimes, and because he usually does not like to lay down only so that he does not miss anything. .
This past Sunday was his dedication and as my pastor was praying over him, he mentioned that the reason why the enemy has fought us so hard was because my son was going to bring a lot of healing. Healing do to things that happened before we came together in marriage. I know I heard that in my spirit several times before he was born and I honestly believe it is true. He is this amazing blessing from God and has deepen the meaning to my life. I know that this is very corny and bias but it's so real and so true. I am thankful that the Lord trust me to raise him up and I don't take that lightly.
So those moments when motherhood and life can get trying, God uses the joy in my child's smile to bring things back into perspective for me. I think to myself I want to be the best mom and wife that I can be. So he pushes me towards the Father because I know that I can't do it without Him. It pushes me to really deal with the hindrances that are holding me back so that I can be on fire for the Lord and my son can do greater things than me. Call me fanatic, and I know that every generation says this but I truly believe that my baby's generation is the generation that will usher in the rapture and second coming of the Lord.
